I feel bad for any new victims he will exploit. I am sure it will be their money, time, and resources. I am certain that I can be the villain in his new fiction. Nothing more harmful than that. But isn’t that enough? I find humor in that.

I am closing the book on this. I did not express my feelings (as I mentioned above post). I am very happy I did not. My feelings would have not meant anything to my sociopath. No need to display any weakness. I have been cold and distant. I have not talked to him, and chose the “look through” method. Something my father is very uncomfortable with. He is used to exploiting people through invoking feelings of pity. He craves adoration. None here, and it worked.

Therefore, outfoxing the fox does not seem possible without a full-on confrontation & eviction. It will be war, and they don’t understand it. AND, to top it all off–I don’t want to keep my mouth shut. It’s my house and I should be allowed to express my feelings at this point. It’s been 44 years of repressed feelings.

Thank you … I felt my article covered an important misconception.

I’ve got a few questions, if you don’t mind:

Most diagnosed sociopaths (i.e., with AsPD) do not generally tell people about their condition because they use the condition for their own benefit, so …

1) Why do you tell people?

2) Why and by whom (e.g., psychologist, psychiatrist, etc.) were you diagnosed, and at what age? Most of those clinically tested are due to a court order, not by volunteering.

3) Why do you feel you would not face the law if you killed or even hurt someone? Most people eventually get caught.

4) At what age did you realize you were different than others?

Like everyone else here, you will remain completely anonymous. I do hope you will answer these questions and explain anything else you’d like. We’d all like to know more.

Thanks.

I am diagnosed with AsPD, and any time I try to explain this to someone they think I’m just going to end up killing them. True, I would kill someone given the right opportunity without any legal punishment, but I’m not a savage uncontrollable serial killer.

The ignorance of people amaze me.

This is why I would like to disagree with you on this point. Of course I understand the example you give, but I do think it focusses on the outsider’s point of view, leading to a wrong answer. It is correct that two sociopaths never will be identical or act absolutely predictably – which is true for any mental disorder. It is also true that lots of people are not willing to understand that axe-wielding and crying “Here’s Johnny!” are not required behaviour of a sociopath. The outsider accordingly needs to educate himself to understand the real characteristics of sociopathy, which will enable him to see combinations of these characteristics in the varied persons they meet. In this, you are correct.

However, sociopaths, at the core of their being, ARE all the same. They are little more than automatons, human bodies inhabited by a brain bent on survival, maximising personal gain and satisfaction of basic needs. Their individual pasts and presents shape them to completely different forms of character, but a true sociopath is always the same PERSON as the next one, because they lack the deeper emotions that determine who, rather than what, we are.

You and me are not only different because I’m an Austrian, speak German, have a different job, a different social background etc. We are different because our emotions give us different goals in our lives, different outlooks on life itself and different opinions in moral matters. Not everything we do or want is for egotistical reasons.

Or, put more simply: I would die for my children without a second of hesitation. You might do the same or not, because your sense of self preservation is too great, or because the relationship to you child was shattered, or because there are other children that also depend on you or… there are a thousand possible answers.

The sociopath will not die for his children. Never. Because, in the end, every sociopath is alone on this world, the only sentient being that matters to him.

In this, they are all equal, and in this, they are all predictable.

I feel strong anxiety in your words, even a sense of panic … I know these feelings well. Try to find someone to speak with, a psychologist or psychiatrist would be best and safest. Who you used to be able to confide in before may not be safe now.

As you are feeling, the evil is mind boggling. Read as much as you can online to educate yourself. Understanding what you are dealing with will help you cope. Take one day at a time.

Take care of yourself.

Did you get past the fears?
Did you trust again? Or, is it more about learning to trust myself first?
Do you ever get that feeling that you’ve gotten your soul back?

It felt as if my soul was completely sucked out of me.

I’ve got a feeling most will say push yourself to do things you normally wouldn’t. I have been but it feels as if it’s taken longer to get past this then i want it too.

Thank you. Please feel free to write more, as I would guess it’s more therapeutic for you than you may realize. I began this site as a place to piece my shattered life together, with no expectations at all. The traffic has been mind-boggling.

You’d think that with so many victims on the planet, that it would be a regular topic covered in mass media. But I’ve come to believe that some of the most successful people in any chosen field: politics, medicine, law, mass media, etc., have simply used their personality disorder to achieve what they have, by using the same tactics that any sociopath uses: other people to fulfill their own agenda.

Politics, especially, seems to be made for sociopaths. Which is why I settled on Country of Liars as the name of this site.

Hang in there.